Lucky XL Bag Update

*Tanya's words, Kurt's GIFs*

In true ME fashion, I come bearing both good and bad news. Maybe I should say GREAT and TERRIBLE news, but you get the point. Let's start with the great. Like I said on December 26, I got my LUCKY XL bag ordered (quick pause)

Onto the not so good news... the terrible news. I'm literally on day 14 of a migraine (not a typo), and despite the pure joy of getting the bag, I just CANNOT film. I got my bag in on Monday the 18th, two days earlier than expected. I was shocked!

I was all set to push through it and show this migraine who's boss.

Migraine: "You can't film. I own you."

Tanya:

There was nothing going to stop me. I got this!

Yeah. Then came the lights...

Like...

I haven't been able to do anything pretty much since my last IG post. You guys know I've always struggled with migraines, but since that consecutive TBI and concussion, I have been in a world I didn't even know existed, one worse than the old (migraine world). I feel like I'm about to have a nervous breakdown. I haven't been able to beat this YET. I'm trying EVERYTHING I can think of, and I just...

I don't know what to do. I don't even know if there is anything to do. I just want to curl up into a ball and die (not literally. Don't worry). I need this to stop!

I can't promise anything. I give up even suggesting or hinting at a time I'll be back. I hope it's tomorrow. Hell! I hope it's today!! I just don't see light (no pun intended) from where I am in this torture tunnel. I don't know what to think, what to believe, and I'm to the point where I don't dare hope. I suppose more importantly, I don't want to string you along. I feel like everyone's...

... and rightfully so. I'm not saying you ARE, I just feel that way is all. I've been wrong on a comeback so many times, I'm starting to feel like Jaclyn Hill.